The only reason I ever stopped dreaming about becoming
Emergency medical technician was because nobody believed in me. Everybody said
I was to slow to be an EMT and that is why I could never do it. I guess I was
putting everybody else happiness before my own. That was very stupid of me. I
would be on my way to being an EMT right now if it weren't for that. Truth be told, I am fascinated by
criminology, and while maybe EMT would not have been the right fit for me. I
still wish my life; my career would be more involved with the police force. But
then I would be a part of a shitty legal system that finds marijuana users more
dangerous than sex offenders! It’s weird
it’s like everything I wanted to do when I was younger like go in to the
military is everything I am against now. Can’t go into the military because I’m
fat and short according to their standards and I don’t know how to swim but
better yet I can’t and Shouldn't go into the military because war in useless
and it kills of many innocents people day in and day out. War is not the way to
create peace. We shouldn't have to kill people to create peace. I digress! Every single time I watch Criminal
Minds, NCIS, or Elementary I get really sad because I know I can no longer be a
part of law enforcement. While offering
therapeutic services to our Military vets and police officers, EMT’s and
Firefighters would be really good insight to what happens to them and the
experiences had on the job, it’s not the same as being there and witnessing
first-hand what actually happens. If I have any hope of kindling this flame of
desire within me it’s to work with the law enforcement, recovering substance
abusers in their house or rehab, and military vets. I particularly have a high
want to work with the recovering substance abusers in their homes Kind of like
how Watson helps Sherlock. Yes It will
be a depressing thing to listen to people talk about their traumatic filled
experiences but people have been doing that for years with me So it can be
done. It’s how the mental hospitals and therapists make their money anyways by
being a service to the therapists because the therapists are to burned out and
depressed from listening to everybody else’s shenanigans.
In a sense I feel so lost because I have devoted so
much of my life to better educating myself on the struggles and way of life of
the Lesbian Gay Bisexual community as
well as the Transgender community when perhaps would I have been more focused
on Law enforcement and those topics already discussed? Where do I start to
kindle this fire in me? Who do I talk to? How can I improve upon my understanding?
I feel like I have no one to talk about this with
because people just dismiss me when I tell them I want to do this. Where do I
go to get proper training for this?
What do I do?
How do art therapists get their specialty like LGBT
folk, substance abuser, and Military law enforcement vets? That is what I want my specialties to be
I don’t know maybe my diverse interest in things like
the queer communities, substances abusers and law enforcement is just that I
love to better understand the traumatic experiences one has gone through. Its
sends me on this high. Like a nerdy high because I feel like I am getting
smarter. I’m sure if there were to ever come a point where I knew all there is
to know about substance abusers, queer folk and law enforcement I’d find
another hook to latch on to but doubt that will ever happen.
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