What if

What if I told you that I miss you too

What if I told you that I am aching for you

What If I told you that I send you kisses and hugs all the time and all I wanna do is kiss your forehead and calm you

What if I told you that I was your anon this whole time- I believe you and everything you said.

What if I told you that the whole reason I never gave up on you is because I knew you could do better.

What if I told you that you do to deserve me - I love you

What if I told you I am writing this blog about you

What if I told you I forgive you- you still need to prove yourself to me though-

What if. . .

What if I told you I wanna talk to you.

Where do I begin.

So many things I want to say. So dumb as to how to phrase it.

What if I told you I am happily numb right now

What if I told you that you made me want to cry

What if I told you that I sometimes go looking for your youtube videos just so I can hear your adorable voice again and the way your face scrunches up is so beautiful it makes my heart melt.

I'm sure you are totally different person outside then the last time I saw you but that doesn't change who you are in that body of yours.